We had a time of worship through song, word, and prayer this morning. It was a powerful reminder of God's perfect and pure love. My spirit trembled at His touch upon the first note of praise. How quickly He comes! How soon the tears follow. There is joy and freedom in each drop, no matter how small. Once the first tear breaks, liberation floods the darkness. What relief! God is with us in this sickening and heartless world of pain, poverty, and brokenness. Oh, but where the Lord is, beauty pours forth turning darkness to light, pain to joy, poverty to wealth, and brokenness to healing.
What can I say in the presence of the Lord? The finite form of my body responds in the only way that it can: tears, a genuine offering and response to Him who is overwhelming in power and majesty. The strength and might of His presence is like a north wind: gentle yet fierce. When it comes, it comes in full force. Even in the face of a strong wind, our breath is taken away and tears spill from our eyes. So it is with Him. In His presence, I have no words to speak. He captures my heart and fans desire. Wholeheartedly, "as the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God" (Ps 42:1).
There comes a time in each of our spiritual journeys when we are wrought with doubt and confusion and we struggle with purpose and/or value. In these times, it is imperative to remember only one thing: God's unfailing love. Have you ever tried to convince God of your doubt? "God what were you thinking?! I'm not good enough to do this! I have nothing to offer." Thankfully, God isn't so easily convinced! Yet there is truth in the latter 2 declarations: I'm not good enough and I have nothing to offer. . .of value. Fortunately, God has more to reveal and His voice is audible over my doubt (I cannot say it has always been this way.) He declares: I AM good enough and I have everything to offer.
How redeeming is the love of God! Truly, His grace is sufficient. It is a lesson I continue to learn and pray to never forget. But if I do, teach me again, O Lord. Teach me all your ways! Blow through me, dear God. Surround me in your embrace. I will follow and anoint your feet with oil. You have forgiven much and given more. You have given me the knowledge and inspiration of your love. So I lie down, knowing I am nothing, in order that God, who is everything, might be everything.
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I leave in the morning with 2 other interns and our host family for 2 villages in western Nepal. I do not know what to expect nor do I know how God will move. I only pray to be where He is. I will be off the net until I return on Saturday. I hope to bring you all great reports of our Lord's activity and grace! Thank you for all of your support! May we embrace the knowledge that God is with us in all things!
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